Rejection?!

I always have this fear of being rejected. When I was young... I often afraid that my friends will desert me because of my look, that was my inferior.
As to sustain such friendship, I ended up "buying" friendship. I knew I was a fool to do such, but it seem to be no choice, and because of this "buying" thingy I have manage gain some "friends".
Those friends who stayed around me, were only "extras", like we cantonese will classified that as "care leh fare" they were sort of being paid to be my friends.

Now... I got to the society, I still face the same problem. I got to buy candies to curry flavor my colleagues and boss, but wait! Here, is somewhat different, this time I do it with God's mercy and love.
With no string of attach, willing and truthfully giving them a treat.
Although, I still hoping that they will treat me nicer or at least don't give me a cold shoulder when I needed help, but, I believe they somehow will be touch by my action.

That's what I mean by do it with God's love and the result will be much effective.
People at office attitude has changed.. Not because of the candies.. But because, God
has work within me.. To demonstrate love... Not humans love but Godly loves..
awe.... So nice~ When will I get back my treat? Hmm... *deep thought*(=_="')