I am expire in your life

I may be good to use, but everything been use should have a limit or expiry date. I decided to let go.. or should I say to give up. I see you as beyond hope, with despair and disappointment. Loving you (Dotes), yet you treated me as a dumbass.

Sorry... I think, I can't help you in any further. You have to walk your own way out. I have given you too much attention and "resources", yet I am not being appreciate by you. Pray that, you will not take others for granted.

Don't ask me who I referring to? You know who you are.

Sign off,
Sandy....

Any left over food?

I thought this will not happen in Singapore or even in this days...

I had lunch with Andy at Bt Merah ABC market this afternoon. We were having a
nice chat, out of sudden, "someone" actions has caught my my attention. I was
rather disturb by what he did... NO!!! he didn't "flash" at me.

I spotted this old was collecting left over food from every tables. He took
out his own prepared empty "mineral water bottle" and pour in the "unfinished"
Teh (tea) that left over the customers into the bottle and was just 1/4 filled
and he mixed with another cup of kopi-o (black coffee) I can't help and wonder
how can that work? Won't Lau Sai meh? I am sorry... I know I should show
sympathy for that old man but I just couldn't help thinking "that" (Lau Sai)
as my very 1st thought.

Later part.... I saw him swipe over the table and place the left over food in
a NTUC fairprice plastic bag. Yes! I said table not from the plates or bowls. I
was so helpless to see that. Which mean is not so much like left over food but
more likely be called as "rejected food". Probably were some spoil brats spilled
it on the table and the milion dollars mum stop their kids from taking back from
the table and just leave it there.

My heart turns sour (心酸) and loads of thought flash across my mind... Where
is the old man's kids? Where is his saving? Where is his partner? Where are
those claims to be caring and loving the citizen's garmen? Where are those
social workers? Why no one cares to help him?

Are we too fortunate? I began to fear we claims to be 安居乐业 and 安定繁荣 yet we see
so much tragic stories around... Sigh....

What will I going to be in 20 year from now? Will be successful to call home to ask :

我饿了 可以煮饭给我吃吗？

OR

我很饿 先生 小姐有省饭施舍吗？

Sigh........

Psalm 23

Psalm 23 (For the Work Place)
The Lord is my real boss, and I shall not be in want.
He gives me peace, when chaos is all around me .
He gently reminds me to pray and do all things without murmuring and complaining.
He reminds me that he is my source and not my job.
He restores my sanity everyday and guides my decisions that I might honor him in all that I do.
Even though I face absurd amounts of e-mails, system crashes, unrealistic deadlines, budget cutbacks, gossiping co-workers, discriminating supervisors and an aging body that doesn't cooperate every morning, I still will not stop---for He is with me!
His presence, His peace, and His power will see me through.

He raises me up, even when they fail to promote me.
He claims me as His own, even when the company threatens to let me go.
His Faithfulness and love is better than any bonus check.
His retirement plan beats every 401k there is!
When it's all said and done, I'll be working for Him a whole lot longer and for that,

I BLESS HIS NAME ON HIGH ABOVE!!! AMEN~

君儿加油吧~

Sometime is not how hard you try and you will achieve. Is a matter of what is our expectation level. I thought I have work hard enough for the company, I think I have never been so hardworking in my entire life. I used to be late for work, regularly on mc at least twice a month. Lately, I have motivate myself to kick those habits. I have stay back at work till wee hours... supposing I should be "confirm" by this early month, but yet till now, my boss has not breathe a
word.

I am really downcast... I previously was an job hopper, but now I choose to stay on, and perseverance and endurance. Whatever it is, I was down with serious sick, and I choose not to utter a word of dissatisfaction yet I don't even get a encouragement from my boss. Sometime, I wonder how much I worth? Do I have value? Should I still stay on? on should I move on?

I have no one to discuss with. I suppose to seek God for advice, but I have been quite snag to attend church lately. Yes! bad me.... I really don't know how long can I "survive"? Lately, I having this thought... if there is a time machine, and If I can reverse the time... what year will I want to be... I think, I will choose to go back to the time where Jesus just birth, to be his follower. No doubts, I am His follower now, but I want to be the blind man who can touch Jesus's clothes and got heal eternally. Not only to heal my sickness but to heal my soul too. I feel very weak and frail. I have no efforts to move.... My spirit is dying...

Jasmine has been the only one around encouraging me to 加油! 唉。。。 身上都没什么油，
找谁加给我? No matter, how narrow or how much obstacles in front of me, I must not turn back and run... I must not give up.... Lord for your grace is sufficient for me, for You have carry all my sorrow and pain upon the cross, and I choose stand firm with You.

神啊！给我力量吧！

Norman's New Blog

Yes!!! I hear you complaining... I am sorry... I know I have been long didn't update my blog. I was really tied down with my work. I neglected my friends, blog, and even God. I was down with fever and cough for past weeks, yet fully recover.

Last week was my buddy Norman's birthday. He sort of reminded me, I never been updating my blog since donkey weeks. Yeah... King kong's weeks....I am sorry... I will do my best to keep you update... NO MORE misery stories and complaint... erm... maybe a bit can? Plus my craps and jokes... ok?

Well.. lately, my computers has protested too.. I can't upload my photo, guess is time to
get a new set... Well.. Christmas is coming soon... Andy you know what to do right? Yeah! I know you have been "so" clever all this while, I guess, you get my hint.... Compac computer not bad right? yeah.... yes... please... thank you!

Well.... Not long ago, I have just celebrated my XXth birthday and Andy has been pamper me real bad that he bought me a present that I sort of longing for quite sometime... I am proud to present you my new gadget,

Sony Ericsson K800i

come with cybershot and 3.2MB... and what's more I can use this to do my blog anywhere.... wuuuoooooooooo....

Oh yeah... Allow me to introduce you, my buddy cum brother Norman's new blog... spare a little time and support to visit, his past time is to talk craps and simply "cold joke".
Normanlly Norman.

If interested how Norman look like... Erm... I do have a picture over here......

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Yan dao right?