Death .... Depression

This few nights I kept dreaming people around leaving me. I even dreamt that I have was holding my very own death certificate and pleading God to give more days to live. Well... Being a Christian I should live with no fear of death, but what about those who yet is a Christian? Do they know where will they ending to be?


My boyfriend kept saying that I think too much, but how long can we survive in this world. An average lifespan of a human is about 60+, after we past this life, anyone know what will be the next?


People has dying every minutes but how many of them able to enter to the kingdom of heaven? So are we humans just another piece of shit staying on earth for 60years and then be forgotten? What have we done to please God so much to enter to His kingdom? Why so many people commited some wrongs start blaming God? God given us so much chances and yet we sinned over and over again so we still dare to shout out to God, "Where are you when I needed You"?


Sometime, I really need to be alone to seek God for more answers and even to reflect on my own "deeds". Will you not find Him, when you seek Him? Will you not be given when you ask of Him?

Kindness

I have been rather dramatic this few weeks. I begin to ask a lot funny questions. Perhaps, I have been stucking myself in Yahoo answer for too long. I kept having questions like...
Act of kindness or Acting to be kind ?
Act of random kindness or Act of kindness with no string of attach?
What's the difference? I have been quite bother by this, should I say I am seriously confused by the meaning.

So I have gotten a quite postive/simple answers or should I say conclusion.

• Act of kindness - Action carry out to be kind. Etc: I assisting a old lady to cross a busy road.
• Acting to be kind - No willing to be nice or kind, just acting to be nice/kind to other party with motive.
• Act of random kindness - Be kind on certain thing or people, depend of situation and capability.
• Act of kindness with no string of attach - To be kind to someone never ask for repay or reward.

So are we human really kind in nature or because God 1st show His kindness to us, that why we are kind? Does it mean we show kindness with motive?

I am back...

Sorry my blog was haywired. First I lost (or should I say I forgotten) my password.

Secondly my blog's wallpaper appeared alot of "frogs".

Well... now finally back to normal.

More will be coming up.