Everlasting

Learnt from a friend that her marriage is about to come to an end. Although, we have been taught since Sunday school, there is nothing on earth will be lasting except God who is in Heaven watching over us. I couldn't help but having this bitterness in myself. This few nights I couldn't sleep well. I have been stress over work and my health



Friendship may easily tearing apart, someone that you used to sleep beside every night also can turn their back toward you someday. Another shocking was Popstar Michael Jackson had passed away, being that he wasn't my idol but I really feel pity for him. What trauma that he had gone thru, we might never understand, we only know is the physco side of him going thru plastic surgeon and child abusing.
Sigh... Actually many times I want to write out my feeling toward the world and people around. I feel so disappointed over issues in life.



And yeah, I somewhat also disappointed in God. Life is never be fair to me. NEVER!! I am no popstar, but my adventure is as complicated as them. With all this testimonial that I have, it didn't bring any glory to live on. I admit I am a 100% attention seeker. cos' I am always an entertainer to all my friends. Everyone can come to be for prayers, advise and jokes. but there is no one could understand my most inner being. I do doubt my faith in God too. When I post this qtn: "No one understand me!" Thousand of christian will shoot back, " GOD DOES!"
If He does, why He let me suffer so so so much? I am not like Paul or Job... I am just SANDY living in Singapore crying out for mercy.





I sometime really staying alone with all by myself together with my laptop. Well... they have a new way calling that, 宅女 someone that enjoy staying at home, eating at home, shop at home... everything just doing at home. I just don't want to interfere with others neither do I want to be bother by others. =~~~(